Savannah coming home tomorrow

Savannah's probation officer called and she plans to release her tomorrow. I visited her on Sunday and she sounded and looked good; sounded positive and like she understood that she had to change. Lisa said the same thing. Will it work this time? Who knows how long she will stay on track.

I have to start building her self-esteem, but i don'tknow how. She is so smart--why won't she do better in school? What can we do for her to help her finish her school work and pass all of her classes? Threats don't work, obviously; bribes don't really work either because once she has recieved the promised thing, she goes back to normal the very next day. I can't continually give her something for work that is expected---that can't be building selfesteem.

I don't know what to do for her. My boss suggested I put her in charge of something. we do the march of dimes walk every year; maybe if i put her in charge of building our webpage, blogging and finding donors she would like that (i doubt it).

She is so beautiful when she tries. When she cut her hair last year so short it really affected her self esteem even more. Now, it continaully looks like shit and so she feels that nothing she does will detract from that.
when she tries to look nice she does. When she tries to be happy she is. When she tries to be good, she is wonderful.

I want to cry for her everytime i think about what kind of life she has had over the last few years.
She looks up to AJ so much, she can't be normal because he is so abnormal and she wants to be just like him.

Todd is no help at all with them; he hasnt called since I told him she was in. he didn't even ask if he could call her or anything. he hasn't called or talked to AJ in months. How could i have ever thought he was a decent man? How stupid i was.